"I will!" Be your bridesmaid, but first let me take a selfie!

"You have been there for me through thick and thin. You have seen me cry, grow as a woman, and fall in and out of love. You have been my rock and my sounding board for all things "MEN". I would love to have you continue in this journey with me. Will you be my shoulders, my ears, my support, and my rock for my wedding day? If you are able to dedicate yourself to me from now until my big day, please say you will be my bridesmaid!!"

I'm bringing sexy back!

That's how one of my good friends asked me to be in her wedding. Who could turn down such a request?! The bride has worked so hard during her courtship to lose weight and she looks marvelous. Now is my turn. I have 11 months to get some of this ugly fat off this good lookin' body. As I am typing this post I stop occasionally to sip Royal King organic green tea from my white Starbucks mug with minty green polka dots. I am also starring down a banana.

Can I do it this time? Get rid of a substantial amount of weight that I've been trying to get rid of for such a long time. I haven't loss any big weigh in a long time. I've flatten my belly to gain it all back and got rid of some back fat but its all back. Glistening and sweating every time I make a move.

The wedding is just another motivator for something I've been very much interesting in doing for a very long time. I'm trying to make my mind over people. It aint easy, but somebody gots to do it.

Goals on the Fence

"Im going to accomplish all my goals this year! Lose weight, scale back on my hobbies, journal, and put the more important things first."... That was the vigor I HAD at the beginning of this year. Its gone. If I have a REAL TALK session with myself I was probably fakin even when I thought I made those goals with vigor and honesty.  Im addicted to Greene's homeade vanilla ice cream - Im paying for Weight Watchers and not using it. I am not motivated to work out - I joined the gym for motivation and havne't been back since I signed up. I just ate some bonified chicken a two piece mild white meat with a biscut, strawberry jelly, and mashed potatoes - one of my favorite bloggers mentioned it on facebook today and that is what started the craving. She has no idea the the advertising she did, (maybe she do, she is a physco therapist. I frequet her natural hair blog, not her physco blog, fyi) I wonder how many people got some chicken just because she mentioned it. This weekend a very motivating statement was made, "if you don't make goals for yourself, someone else will make them for."  But I do have goals...Every week I reaffirm my goals, but one day into the week and im done.

When I joined Weight Watchers one of the options you can check is to have someone call you to encourage you. I always check that box, (I've rejoined too many times.) and no one has ever called. A little encouragment from someone other than my sister and my mom, who always seem to nag would be nice.

If you're reading this and you would like some encouragement from a stranger, Ill be that one. Drop me a line on what you could use a boost phone call for and we'll try it. Nothing freaky!

Im getting back on track today!