He Switched It Up.

Im struggling with what to title this post.

Here's the situation: Guy like girl. He meets her friends and assumes the role of "ultimate" gentleman. When girl is out with her friends in public settings and guy shows up he walk everyone to their cars at the end of the night, hers being the last stop, of course. He engages her friends in conversation, trying to get to know them. He gives everyone big embraces, like family embraces. In private phone conversations he professes love for girl, she turns him down. After a while he sees her friends, he greets them with one hand hugs, or more like pats on the back. Girl doesn't show up to the public settings, but friends still do, when he leave, he bids everyone an adieu and goes straight for his car, leaving friends to fiend for themselves.

Its not that the friends needed escorts to their cars but its interesting to see a guy change up. I wonder was he ever the ultimate gentleman in the first place or just a poser with booty on the brain or maybe just love dejected. IDK just wondering...

Personal Tabata Challenge

Im starting this challenge to see just how I can PUSH IT. I took a Tabata class last year about this time and while I wanted to vomit, I enjoyed the class and the theory behind the exercise. I just finished a 4 minute session and I plan to do it every day for the next week while still doing the other exercises I do during the week, roller skating, squats and crunches, and see where this gets me. 

Trying to be a better me as I get better with age. Black women do not have to be the stereotypical overweight women they try to box 75% of us in. Not that it is their fault - let me clear that up. My goal is after pic fab. Day one - DONE.

Self-deprivation.

"They" say the children of this generation won't be able to write when they get older because all we do is text and type. So in an effort not be an old woman who done lost her handwriting abilities, I write down my thoughts now. Feels kinda good too. Sometimes I can't stop. I like my handwriting very much and I write very exaggerated because nobody has to read it but me.

Any who.... I don't do well with self-deprivation. I'm learning this interesting trait in myself... If its in my reach and I can get it, its mine! With that being said I'm putting myself on a financial fast. I'm not going to use any credit cards and stay within my budget. I acutally paid a finacial planner to hook a sister up with a plan and I have the nerve, not to follow it. Another waste of my hard earned money.  I'm blowing through my savings for dumb stuff like hair and skates and other non-essential JUNK! This ish cray! I've got to gain control ASAP ROCKY. August starts 'Get Your Life' productions. I get paid at the beginning of the month and I have no big money commitments so this will be a swell time to get it together.

Jotting it down.

Marriage. Cardio. Squats & Crunches. Hair. Fashion. Skirts, dresses, jeans, and t-shirts. Strips! Big blue and white ones. Printed jeans adorning newly squatted buns and flat belly. Big hair. Friends and functions. Working too hard. Roller skating! Feeling the music. Not afraid to fall, but don't want to fall. Too big. Red lipstick. Kate Von D not Ri Ri Woo. Paying my vow. Zealous minister. Mind over matter. Faithfulness and honesty. My Father. Boyfriends, cuddles, kisses. Serious conversations, disagreements, no yelling. No more bacon. They're trying to kill us with food.

Its a lifestyle change...

So yeah basically I worked out every day last week and weighed in when I was on my cycle and thought I was going to lose crazy weight and only lost .6. That's that bull crap right there. Yes you may say its only been a week and your eating habits prob weren't up to snuff and all that good stuff and you'd probably be right but still. I've never worked out every day of any week in my life in the humid heat. I wanted to lose at least 7 lbs. I'm not majorly disappointed tho. I realize this is a lifestyle change and I have to keep at it for my health. So that is what I shall do. *guzzles water*.

A lady I graduated from high school with just died from pancreatic cancer. That news hurt my heart. For many different reasons. When I found out I researched it and of course they don't know what causes it outside of smoking. I'm not sure if she smoked, but I  believe she did. I'm sure thats not the only cause of it tho. I hope to see her again in paradise, she was a cool lady with loads of style.

I could ramble about a whole lot of things but I'll shut if down for now.

Take care!

Gumption

Gumption:

Noun 1. Shrewd or spirited initiative and resourcefulness. 2. Courage; Spunk; Guts.

This guy at job. FINE. Dresses nice. Looks nice. Speaks nice. Smells nice. Smiles nice. Today I ALMOST had the gumption to holla... Sad. Then he said something about Good Friday and it jolted me back to my senses. Today I feel like I'm off my rocker.  *searches for my rocker....*

30 to Check Up

I did lose some weight, but I put it back on, you should have seen me six months ago. I can't stay consistent, ima yo-yo. I already have a gym and Weight Watchers membership. I went vegan for a few week, felt and looked great too...

That is going to be my response to my doctor after she looks at my weight, and ask me why I havne't lost any weight.  So basically I can't go to the doctor until I lose 30 pounds. I need some praise and recognition from her, I'm tired of hearing the same ol thing out her mouth. What I should do is go ahead and schedule the appointment and work hard to lose it by that date.... but that is too much like right. I have put it out in this here cyber universe and I expect the universe to hold me accountable. I actually despise accountability. Im not about this fit life, but I so desparately want to be.

 

30 pounds to my check up, here goes everything.

Im going to the bar tonight. Its been a long time. Drink, eat, chat, laugh, that is what I plan to do. Mojitos for EVERYONE.